Who is Zorba the Buddha?

The author of this work is Briggite Arora, my friend, guide and teacher, she has lived in India for over 25 years. Her work is below.



Cosmic Being – Pure consciousness (perhaps)


The Buddha Consciousness belonging to the vertical Transcendent Realm is a Higher-Self Consciousness, that when combined with the lower-self Conscious personality of Zorba, the human personality Man, creates an Integrated Being. This is a more highly developed human being than the normal species of Homo sapiens. He is one who is fully united and centered within his Outer personality and his Inner Essence Beingness. It was his advanced Evolutionary Consciousness thathrew him out of his old illusory Earth world; not physically but by altering his perception of it. This then is Zorba the Buddha, a new species of Man in the making.

Zorba the Buddha has undergone many Evolutionary changes on a journey that willTransform him into a new species; that of a Higher Self Conscious Being. He is the most Evolved human being to date, of the species of homo sapiens Man. He is the forerunner of an entirely new species of Man and also the last Man belonging to the homo sapiens lineage. Zorba the Buddha is the maturing child of a Higher-Self Conscious Man who at maturity will Transform into a Cosmic Being who will no longer have his home in this world of Matter and Duality. For he will no longer possess a body of physical Matter but one that is composed of Glowing Light vibrations. He will have traveled countless centuries within innumerable personality bodies within the Garden of Mother Nature, before attaining to his maturity as a free Beingness who’s home is in the starlit firmament.

Zorba the Buddha is the prototype, the maturing child of an entirely new species of Man. One that will be replacing this present species of Homo sapiens Mankind. Zorba the Buddha is a spiritually higher Evolved human being then present day homo sapiens. He has through many Transformative stages, over many centuriesdeveloped into a human being with a Higher state of Consciousness and a more finely tuned state of Awareness. Yet as long as he remains a developing Zorba the Buddha, he is still a personality within a physical body, tied to the flow of positivity and negativity, which is created by the Law of Duality. Nothing within Duality can ever be at a standstill of 100%. The seesaw of Duality must always be at each end, at a different percentage. Duality is a place where something can be good and not good at the same time.

Zorba the Buddha must go through the same maturing process that all life forms do. From his inauguration into Buddha-hood through to his full Maturity as a new species of Man, his biological, emotional, and intellectual stages will constantly be shifting and readapting to their new arrangements. However, all the various states that he passes through, are only temporary stages in the life-flow of the maturing New Man. Once he has developed into his maturity, the former unstable Higher States of Consciousness experienced, will no longer be seen as something strange or miraculous. His Higher-Self Consciousness is now unwavering, for it is in tune with his vibrational body and has become part of his DNA. He will never be overpowered by any other states of Consciousness again, for Awareness within the Higher-Self Consciousness is the highest form of comprehension that this present species of Man can achieve while still functioning within worldly existence.


All Zorba the Buddhas’ have attained to double Awareness, without which one would
not be able to be Aware of one’s personality self and one’s inner Higher-Self Beingness, at one and the same time. With double Awareness one is fully Aware of all their personalities’ thoughts and actions and the people that they are engaging with. At the same time our inner Self-Awareness is surveying all that it sees taking place in the outer world. It is only then, that one is fully Awake and entirely alive. And the more that one is Awakened to oneself, the more energy is absorbed out of the limitless Divine Ocean of Eternal Life.

In order to continue Evolving he must persevere in his quest of escaping Duality. His first major obstacle for escaping Duality, that of not having Self-Awareness, has been overcome. He has now attained to the state of having permanent double Awareness and his escape from Duality and Mother Nature is now assured. However, he must remain continuously on guard against falling asleep again to his Self. For falls back into “forgetfulness of his Self” are almost always inevitable, due to the siren calls of worldly weaknesses that are still inherent in his personality. How long his journey into freedom takes is dependent on each Zorba the Buddhas’ strength of Will and his perseverance in overcoming all the obstacles that he will continue to encounter in life.

Outsiders have a more sensitive nervous system than average human beings, who have a higher threshold for the noises of this world. They have a lower threshold for noise, intense vivid colors, and harsh music and in particular the banging and clanging noises associated with big cities. Outsiders prefer to live in the quieter, slower paced rustic life of the countryside. They also feel their own mental and emotional pains more acutely but in turn, are also more sensitive to the feelings of others. They have the ability to see others beyond their personality facade which they present to the world. They can intuit a persons’ Inner-Self; which even that person is not in touch with. It is not always pleasant to see too much and too deeply behind peoples’ masks and societies’ political correctness. This can take a toll on their mental and physical well being. Outsiders must learn to walk a fine line between too much and not enough.

Zorba the Buddha will remain bound to this world of Duality and his lower-self personality until he reaches maturity. And in a sense, he will be bound even more than ever before, because he must enter into life as deeply as he can, in order to explore his Inner-Self to the fullest extent possible. He must not deny or suppress Earthly life but to eat and drink of it with passion. And in order to do that, he must continue to experience all Earthly pleasures and pains. And since he is more sensitive in body and spirit then normal human beings, his joys and sadness’s will be greatly magnified. Because, unlike most human beings who are a conglomeration of all their many different selves within an unfeeling data Mind; he is a united Being. Therefore, whatever he experiences, he feels with all of his Entirety from the core of his Inner-Self Beingness.

Self-Realization — A New Birth

Zorba the Buddha is a human being who lives and has his Beingness within two worlds. He lives within the normal Homo sapiens race of today and the forthcoming race of tomorrow. One is this horizontal world of Duality, the home of this present race of Homo sapiens and the other is a world of Oneness existing on the vertical plane. Zorba the Buddha has his Consciousness and his Awareness, at the point where the vertical and the horizontal meet. It is there at this crossing point that Zorba the Buddha to be, experienced a second birth while in this Earthly world. This birth is created through the Divine-Act-of-Self-Realization and with it comes the highest Awakened state possible for a human being. And it is this peak state of Awareness that will make it possible to begin the last leg of the journey that will eventually lead Zorba the Buddha out of bondage from Duality.

Self-Realization is an act of Transcendence. It is the opening of an entrance that leads to escalating Transformations that will carry more authority and intensity of purpose then ever before.

Self-Realization is the new frontier for the final purging of the old Man’s lower-self personality. The Evolutionary Kundalini power is never static and it will continue to Transmute the old lower-self Conscious personality, until all the old Man’s habits and desires have been eradicated. It is only then, that the role of the personality will be completed. For it will have fulfilled its function of being the cocoon that would eventfully bring forth a new type of butterfly. A type of Man that has never breathed on thisEarth before. And like all other earlier species of Man, will have had to travel a long arduous path before reaching his intended Completeness.

At the time Self-Realisation occurred, a portal opened through which the human personality’s Awareness is now in permanent contact with their Soul. These born again Enlightened human beings will never feel alone or isolated again, because they know that they are always surrounded by the mantle of their Soul’s guidance and protection. They know that their Soul always hears their calls and from now on, they will hear It’s answering voice of guidance and to feel the comfort of It’s presence. Whatever joys and sorrows may come, they now have gained through faith and humility, the assurance that their Soul’s purpose is always to bring what is needed, to keep them moving forward to their final destination. And to those who are very close to finishing their Earthly journeys, the magnificence and the glory of their Evolutionary Journey will be revealed. And that is, that the objective of the Journey is to become an Immortal Being and eventually, an autonomous Soul.

Becoming A Zorba The Buddha

We humans can only travel towards the Light-of-the-All-Consciousness through a gradual process of adaptation. Without a gradual Transformation of our Beingness, we could never survive the potent power of the Full-Light-of-Consciousness that we will all at one time or another encounter on this Evolutionary journey. This journey requires living thousands of lives, with each one, increasing and widening our sense of Awareness, as we move further and further up the Evolutionary ladder. Gradual movements upwards are needed, because our physical, intellectual, and emotional states are being significantly altered as we climb up each rung of the ladder. At the beginning of our climb, we have almost no Awareness of our Inner-Self. And it is only by advancing up the ladder and moving through all the various stages of Consciousness, that we can increase the Awareness of ourInner-Self. A major Transformation of our Beingness is when we attain to a permanent state of Inner-Self Awareness.

All human beings are in the process of becoming a Zorba the Buddha. Some will get their faster than others, for all have their own special paths to follow. All must navigate their path at their own speed, which is determined by their experiences and the degree of their longing to move onward. Most human beings creep along slowly on a long drawn out path, until their goal is reached. A minority move at a faster pace, because they have an acute inner longing which drives them, even though they don’t understand the reason for this unending force. The harder they seek to find the answer for this drive, the more momentum and speed their path will take on. This is the Evolutionary thrust which will give them no peace until they begin their search for “they know not what”. This indicates that those who are willing to give up all for a longing they do not totally understand, have already mutated into the first stages of a Zorba the Buddha.

Two of the major characteristics of a Zorba the Buddha in the making, is that they cannot be satisfied with the ordinary expectations and values of societal life. And secondly, they feel no connection or attachment with the society that they are born into. Almost all, from the time of their birth feel like Outsiders. Almost all have a difficult time with their peers while growing up and especially so when they reach adolescence, when bonding with one’s peers becomes important for societal self-ego-validation and forming friendships. It is at this time in life, that an Outsider really begins to feel the extent of their Outsiderness. And to sink further into confusion about why they feel alienated from others and why almost all their peers ignore or reject them. This is usually the most critical turning point for Outsiders. Some will retreat with bitterness from society all together. Some will completely loose their balance and fall into despair, mental illness, or commit suicide. Some will “gird their loins” and decide to become warriors. To do battle, not only with the world without but also with their own Inner-self. This is the makeup; the composition of a Spiritual Warrior.

Outsiders can never be satisfied, for they are on a search for ultimate perfection. But this perfection they seek, can not be found in this world. It can only be found within themselves. Therefore, their desire to Transcend this world. They have a need to escape all that is mundane and predictable; this is a necessity for their psychological growth and fulfillment. What the Outsider needs to keep sane is constant movement within an absorbing creative endeavor. He needs to be intensely and holistically absorbed in whatever he does in order to feel the movement of life within him. He could never be satisfied with the depthless and lukewarm lives that he observes others leading, which to him is like a living death. His search is for something that is so inspiring and consuming; that it will free him from his own personality-self.

When Outsiders function only within their personality-self, they will find only short-lived satisfactions and peace of mind. Even when making an all-engaging discovery or finding a deeper understanding in the field of work they are presently engaged with, boredom will eventually set in because they cannot be fully engaged without their Inner-Self being actively involved. When they come to a dead-end with an endeavour that had at one time captivated them, the end result can cause a depletion of energy which can then lead to a serious case of depression, which is the Outsiders worst enemy. An intellectually oriented Outsider, who can put their emotions aside at this time, will immediately recognise the danger and begin searching for another compelling interest that will get him back on-the-move. Only through a new interest, will vital energies be released that will restore his balance.

For the Outsider, their Inner-Self takes priority over their personality-self. This is another significant difference between the Outsider and the rest of the main-stream personality driven population who have no desire to focus on the Inner-Self; who’s main thoughts and ambitions are focused outward towards acquiring material goods, comfort and personal security. All Outsiders have one thing in common; in order to live a meaningful life they must find that something, that will give them joyous gratification within which they can lose themselves. It is only by escaping their personality-self, that they can live within the Ecstasy of their Inner-Self Awareness. This however, puts them in a dangerous emotional state: it sometimes happens that they can lose themselves so deeply within their ecstatic states, that they can never adjust again to living within everyday life.

Almost all Outsiders have the desire to gain control over their intellect, emotions, and their body. And it is crucial that they do so, for the majority of Outsiders have a powerful intellect but often do not have emotional control. The more immature Outsiders have the mistaken belief that rejecting worldly desires and actions, will move them further into their Inner-Self Awareness. Some may even begin to shut out everything that stirs their emotionsbecause they are basically afraid of not only their own but other peoples’ emotions as well. Others may abuse their bodies by overexerting themselves physically in order to repress their sexual drive. A few might take up Tantra Yoga that uses sex to induce states of Ecstasy. But being immature, Tantra Yoga would only take them even further away from focusing on their Inner-Self. Instead, their spend life denying intellectual and emotional immaturity will stall their growth forward. For they will be kept busy fighting a battle between their natural human instincts and their battle to escape the worlds siren calls.

This is in direct contrast to some of the more matured Outsiders, who on the surface will not appear to shun worldly life but to embrace it to the fullest extent possible. They know that the outer life is just an illusionary stage, upon which all the actions of society takes place. These Outsiders, instead of fighting to attain their own personal desires, willingly make the choice to take on the responsibilities towards their family or other worldly obligations. They will lead two separate lives; an Inner life and an outer life, in full Awareness of what they are doing in both. In their outer life they are usually seen as responsible and trustworthy citizens and are often admired and respected in the community they live in. However, their Inner-Self world is more significant, for it is deeper and richer in content then their outer life. They might inwardly follow practices such as Karma Yoga, that enforce selfless duty or Raja Yoga, which is the road to mental mastery.

Then there are the Outsider Warriors who have chosen to do battle on three fronts: this world, their own Inner-Self and their Karma. They are determined to overcome all their imperfections by embracing all that this worldly life brings them. By going with passionate zeal into all that they experience, they have the chance to bring to the forefront their unfulfilled hopes, destructive habits, their weaknesses, and unused potentials. To accomplish this, they must wage battle with all the flaws within their personality-self, the shortcomings inherent within their Inner-Self and, to finish paying the accumulated dues owed from their Karmic history. All these unwavering and intense efforts will escalate and bring to a finish their final Transformative stages; within their next few lifetimes.

All the Transformative stages that Zorba the Buddhas’ must go through in order to mature into the New Man, becomes possible only when they have established a two-way connection with their Soul. Zorba the Buddhas’ can then in full Awareness communicate with their Soul who is always connected with them. It is their Soul that will bring them to all the right places in the world, to meet the persons to whom they owe a Karmic debt or to meet those whoowe them one. The Soul will also send them all the situations that are needed to foster their growth and keep them moving forward. And thefoundation to get all of this accomplished is their lower-self personality. The lower-self personality is the sacrificial “beast of burden” who must be willing and strong enough, to absorb all the pains, sorrows, and hardships that will be sent to it.

Zorba the Buddha hears two languages. One is the language of words; thoughts that chatter on and on within the Mind, whether one wants to hear them or not. The second language, is the calm and quiet Presence of his Soul. His Souls’ Presence communicates by sending him “feelings” that emanate from within the core of his Essence. Essence at times can be felt, as a peculiar slight feeling of heaviness, in the area of the lower stomach. Essence is a Spark of the Soul that is seeded within all life forms. It is through this Divine Spark, that a mothers’ womb becomes a tunnel through which we enter physical Earthly life. And as we depart this life, again the Spark takes on the shape of a tunnel through which we leave. Our physical body is only a temporary gift so that we can perform on the stage of mortality. The physical body is a machine. It acts like a suit-of-armor, like the Astronaut wear to shield them from an alien atmosphere. We occupy this body machine suit because it is the support needed for the arena of Earthly life.

This body is not who we are!

The Soul’s silent voice is the language of Direct Knowing, which comes as a steady flow directly from the Divine Creators Consciousness. Direct Knowing is an instantaneous, holistic Awareness that wells-up from within the Essence of all life forms. It is an inborn,intuitive voice that all life forms hear, understand and instantly follow, for they are fully dependent for their survival on it’s Instinctive messages, which is the only voice they hear. Only Man has more than one voice that helps him to survive. He has the voice of his Mind and several different instinctive alarm voices, that he has the choice to heed or not. The most important one, and it has no voice, is the Instinct for Survival which is inherent within all the cells of the physical body. And this Instinct is so fast, that it reacts beyond the concept of Time. Over this instinct the Mind has no control. The reactions of Mind to danger, are infinitely slower and can often make a situation more dangerous, as confusion, doubt and fear can immobilize it or even cause it to go into shock.

The Soul Speaks To Those Who Hear

No matter through what language you call Me, I will understand you. No matter if you whisper or scream or even if your voiceless, I will hear you. For your Consciousness and mine are entwined. I will hear you in your dreams, in your most lucid moments and within your most Ego-Ridden “lost to yourself” moments.  For it is not your “language of voice” that I hear, but the vibrating cells of your Beingness that reach out to me with “feeling”.

I am known by many names but I myself have none.

But no matter by what name you call me, I  know that your calling Me. I hear you when you take your first breath of Earthly air and till you take your last breath as you depart this Earth. Even before your birth, while still in your mother’s womb, I was with you and heard you. Throughout your entire lifetime on planet Earth, I walked every step with you. I was with you through all your sorrows and joys. I heard you as you cried and also heard your laughter. I heard your secret thoughts and heard your spoken words. I felt your guilt and heard your lies, but also your truths and trustworthiness. Your heart was basically kind  until selfish motives took control of you. Compassion
swayed back and forth within you, as it was dependent on your circumstances. I saw the openness and goodness of your heart when you loved with tenderness and
passion but also the coldness when you hated. You in fact, are the normal average human being who sways back and forth between his emotions, and his intellect: between his Heart and his Mind.

I am your Immortal Soul who has many adventures through the personality lives of all my mortal children. My children are the mortal personalities that I have sent down into the world of Matter. They are my actors on the stage of mortal life. Through them I experience all the pains and joys within the physical world of Duality. This world stage you are acting on will pass away as will your physical personality.  But the seed spark that I planted  within each of you, shall return into My keeping. And indirectly, you the personality will remain enclosed within My embrace forever.

The matured Zorba the Buddha will be the last species of Homo sapiens. He will however continue to Evolve further, for Mans’ ultimate destiny is to become a self-governing Cosmic Being who resides permanently within his own Inner Essence; for he has now become all that his Essence contains. He is now a powerful, vibrating Power of Light and an Independent Being who is beholden only to the Divine Creator. His home is an Universe of unending suns, moons, planets, mysterious spaces of darkness and sparkling star-lit skies.

Cosmic Beings


With rare exceptions, a Cosmic Being will no longer incarnate in the flesh as human personalities. 

They can see those who are existing within the lower vibrations of Earth but cannot touch them, for their own powerful radiations go right through fleshly bodies and material objects. Cosmic Beings are however, able to manifest to human beings in the form of Angels or other Celestial Beings, who frequently come as Messengers to help Mankind. Jesus of Nazareth was one example of a rare Celestial Being who chose to incarnate into a physical body so that he could enlighten humanity about the Kingdom of the Divine Creator. And also of death and resurrection for those who followed his teachings. He knew that in order for His message to be heard and understood, He would have to give it in the form of a human being who walked and preached among the general public. He attracted to him 12 Disciples who would spread His teachings around the world. He also knew in advance which one of his Disciples would betray him to the chief priests and scribes who ordered His death. And knew from the beginning that his fate would be his crucification on the Cross.


I am a wanderer in pursuit of myself

A constant traveler

Searching for my own shadow and my final destination.

Part of a Conscious Journey ..

Many years ago, there were two sources that I used to move myself out of my mind and bring me back to the present moment.

Firstly mindful meditation and for me the most important outcome of this was … to see the world through the present moment, for there is no other moment …. don’t fight me on this just please look at it this way. We look through the present moment at the memory (the past) and we see it from our personal perspective. It is the same for the future, we project on the future what we desire through the present moment … in doing so the future becomes an expectation, an attachment, and as such it will very likely bring suffering when it does not eventuate.



So, I live life in baby steps, by simply living in the present, accepting what comes (for unless we do we cannot respond to it) and flowing with it.

Before meditation and mindfulness – I was acting in a group discussion to help some people come to terms with their changed circumstances … so my sincere thanks goes out to Don Miguel RUIZ, the author of the Four Agreements as below.

I was given these Agreements below to pass around .. they made a positive difference to the discussion flow, fostered some personal realisations and even a epiphany for one I was told later, so I think that they are worth sharing here ..

Agreement 1

Be impeccable with your word – speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

Agreement 2 – #This

Don’t take anything personally – Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.


Agreement 3

Don’t make assumptions – Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

Agreement 4

Always do your best – Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self judgement, self abuse and regret.

Consider bringing these thoughts into your life … make them part of you, and they will make a difference in your relationships, both with yourself and how you relate to your external relationships

On the aftermath of change …


There are times in our lives when we need solitude, it becomes totally necessary, this can give us the time we need to try and understand the past, the challenge which we were presented with, and we hopefully understand the reason for the challenge in the first place .. and at some point understand, what we have learnt from the experience. This is something that is incredibly personal, and simple … but it only needs to make sense to you, it must be simple, not convoluted, not a conspiracy.


We do need people in our lives as well …. during this time if we can look outside ourselves, act to help others, conversations with others, over time this can bring a change in perspective, empathy and kindness for others and eventually love back into our lives.

Please bear in mind that God, however you perceive the divine to be, does not judge or punish us, we are totally loved and understood, what I have learnt is that because of our beliefs we punish ourselves …. As others behave towards us … often the perpetrators of these lessons, the others in our lives cannot see the import of what they have done, they do not understand nor it seems care, all they see is something else they desire – their actions do the rest.

For us to be free of their actions and any time in the past, we must forgive them for our own sake, so we are no longer controlled by our past. After we have conquered the challenge, we grow, we become stronger … more solid in our foundations.

We know that Trust is the foundation of all relationships, without trust, there is nothing …. in my case that was critical to the lesson I learnt, which also led me to understand the nature of love itself, not the conditional kind, this love which I speak is not available to most of us on earth, or should I say in the duality world. So I wait, for that love to come into my life, will it come, I am told in my meditations that it will (but I don’t know) …

One needs to be careful when speaking or listening to our souls, for the soul is influenced by our spirit, so when speaking of subjects the spirit holds dear, it may be incorrect … as you may also know our Karma is held in our soul … so asking the soul a question can possibly lead to the creation of an illusion …. I keep coming back to this … Accept, stay present and flow … this little phrase is one I have to constantly remind myself of. I don’t know this, but it feels right that Karma also springs from our past lives and carries forward. As we progress if you are not at peace, fulfilled, or haven’t realized unconditional love, then our true abundant nature may be obscured, it may only be part of the process of spiritual evolution, please do not judge yourself, as I feel we must have faith and take little steps, but just keep moving forward.

We lament constantly with the rhetoric that comes from others, from Politicians, the ignorant and the uninformed or those who have – in their mind – the illusion of knowledge …. To be detached from their rhetoric and actions is hard …. But it is their perspective and so long as it is only rhetoric there is little harm to it for you and I …. The problem becomes manifest when issues are constantly regurgitated … it changes the tone of the conversation from being just blame and criticism, often about subjects which we have no influence over, like World affairs, Government policies, the actions of others, also about the past, about perceived injustices or oppressions – also fear / uncertainty concerning the future … where constant repetition may bring depression, blame, guilt, shame, fear – frustration and may lead to anger and violence … this is when people stop thinking and act to hurt or destroy… all these are also part of us, but being apparently a victim, can be quite destructive to our consciousness, our self-worth, our sense of self, our strength … because we think we are powerless, when in fact we are the crucible of all power, for we are unlimited, we are the Universe.

This is all just a perspective, it has no more value than anyone else’s …. I would welcome your comments and thoughts concerning this. Please note I still have moments with living in the world, such as things happening that are unexpected …. I have to also be aware of over thinking anything …. Over thinking in a way is like digging a hole, deeper and deeper … to survive, at some point we have to let go of the past, an event a person and begin again …. It feels so good when we have this realisation and act, for it feels like a great weight has been lifted off our shoulders.

Solitude & Transformation – 18 days alone in the forest

I am writing this is Cyprus, detached by time and distance from the original experience in Australia.

It has taken me many years to achieve this, a very limited perspective about what happened in this experience, in time this perspective may also change.

The originator was a frustrating experience which I had allowed to happen where I had given others my love and trust as I believed I was loved, this was betrayed, instead their misguided ideology that valued no one but themselves, their beliefs, assumptions, projection and fears was the end of us … this experience which I had was created through my own beliefs demanded in me real solitude .. I had reached a point where all the old ways no longer made sense, I kept hitting a wall – people’s promises and words did not match their actions … I needed to find what was real as mindfulness and meditation although helping weren’t bringing clarity.

In a sea of pain with my internal compass wildly spinning – I had no idea what to do … I was unable to understand the thinking, the beliefs and values of those who had professed their love, then had created this challenge, all emanating from a group that said they lived by Buddhist teachings – a truism being that the basis of all relationships is trust.

I decided to isolate myself purposefully from all distractions, to try and understand why this challenge had come to me … what was it in me that I had to understand, to face and overcome, I wondered what was I to learn from the experience?

The nurturing environment of nature beckoned, it had always been a wonderful energising and calming experience for me, I would go. …. I took some food, tent etc and went looking for a camp site in the state forest – my past experience in nature automatically kicked in, I set up camp, explored the area, boiled water for a drink, all the time feeling the balance and harmony, the nurturing energy of nature flowed into me, then I began to meditate.

Over the next 18 days, I travelled through transitions – the first four days, were a most unsettling, and a very confronting experience … illusions came and went … even in a conscious state I found difficulty in understanding the actions of others … my ego screamed out in defiance of my mindfulness but I did not engage and after a while its voice diminished until eventually the no mind state came … for days I was in a place of wonder … peak experiences came …. some have been repeated since, it was an incredible humbling learning experience as again I could see all life, and the inherent balance and interconnectivity of life, the abundance of nature all around me, from the plants, the insects, the birds the animals and myself – we were one.

During my time in the forest I heard an another voice, a voice I had heard before, which I now know is my soul, it asked me did I want to go on? I asked what would happen if I didn’t, the voice said “we will then stop here, but if you go through you can never go back, you are on a new path” … I said let’s go, and here I am.

I have never regretted this decision.

In the forest, after a while I become one with the environment, the forest and all the life it contained … I couldn’t separate myself I couldn’t judge the actions of others for this reason – this extended to my recent challenge … I couldn’t judge, all I could do was to try and empathise in an effort to understand their actions and what beliefs had brought the situation to me – there was nothing in me that enabled me to understand the motivations of the others in this experience, all I could was to accept the situation, forgive those that had betrayed me, let go and move on.

For me, in solitude …. and nature … I able to see myself for who I am, and then in time understood what I truly wanted.

In my time in the forest, I truly understood the Alan Watts quote: “If you go off into a far, far forest and get very quiet, you’ll come to understand that you’re connected with everything”

Any action, good or bad that comes with intent, brings Karma … I knew that Karma would handle the situation with those in my past far better than I could, so I let go of the past, forgave it and moved on.

As always this was my experience, it may have some similarities with your own or not. There is no right way for everyone’s journey is their own.

Along with a new perspective on the present moment, Peace, Love, detachment, understanding and presence came and has stayed.

My posts are simply my perspective offered in the spirit of discovery, exploration and empowerment – take what resonates with you and leave the rest.

Why you might not want to Visit India.

I understand why you might not want to visit India …. It is a most confronting experience; the contrast is so evident between the rich and the poor who have literally nothing …. with little of no opportunity to improve their lives … India over time makes you question everything you thought was human, equitable and caring and truly makes you wonder about how this can be … but for me it also stripped away my own past and the connection to all that was there – all these learning experiences .. become integrated and distant from your present moment .. they make you more present and understanding, because we have to be, continual awareness of your surroundings is critical … the effect was that it felt like the past was being pushed further and further away from the present … so for that I am thankful – now those past difficult times are absent from my mind … any hurt no longer exists – it is but a past memory without emotive attachment.

There are no social programs to catch the poor … human life seems to have little value … strangely it was a surprise for me to remember after I arrived in India that it truly is a third world country, I guess I had little concept of what that actually meant …. It reminded me of another country when I was a child of about 10 when Dad moved us to the Solomon Islands … (the nature of roads, buildings and infrastructure) but the Polynesian peoples are a much more open and sharing culture, or at least they were then …. The reasons why India is a third world country were everywhere around us …. Workmen trying to cut thick rebar (reinforcing iron) with a chisel and a small sledge hammer rather than a grinder or saw – taking forever – bamboo scafolding reaching high on construction sites … wages are low and safety procedures seem lax … for instance power cables running along what passes for a footpath at waist height – unterminated power cables open on the street ,,,, no way was I going to find out if they were live, by touching them …Beggars … the real ones … (those who aren’t working for someone else in an enterprise) some will accost you as you come out of shops, restaurants and tut-tuts …. Then on the human side you have the lone mother with her baby … this visage breaks your heart … you can feel it … a beautiful child just starting out in life … and it hits you like a brick that this child, whose mother loves more than life itself most likely has little chance of living a long life …. You just give what you can – they will accept what you give them, as little as 10 rupees (about USD$0.15)… for that much will buy a meal in the street stalls … The medical system is poor, some say abysmal…. I have been told that people can collapse in the street and people will walk over them … but won’t help them. When I was ill I went to the local private hospital … where I was treated by a Western Educated specialist Doctor – blood was taken … the other tests — all appeared online via a private link later the same day. The whole experience, the visit to Doctor, Tests and pharmaceuticals cost less than USD$25.00.

So Yes I understand totally why you don’t want to go to India as a tourist …. I know I would not go again unless I went with someone … someone to have my back – I had thought that if I went again, I would go to Goa … the former Portuguese colony on the West coast, south on Mumbai …. Much more familiar and accepting to western eyes and values … I am told.

Many of these observations are from the aspect of a remote observer – a tourist if you will … but when you live in one place as a base for months … the Indian people reveal their caring side, and their humanity … it’s just different from mine … they are a different culture, hence have a different perspective on life. I still receive emails from people I met there …. They like us are living day to day and trying to live and make sense of the present moment .. unlike us … the biggest aspect of their culture is that lack of caring for others, relevant education and hence opportunity …. It seems for many to be their ambition is to have a full time job in the totally bloated Bureaucracy – But perhaps that will change over time … I hope for the sake of the 160 million “Untouchables” that something does … for they are condemned by their birth in the most part, to a life we could not even conceive of.

As I said on one of my blogs … if you go to India …. (1) Only drink bottled water … never drink tap water (2) Before you drink the bottled water, make sure that the cap seal is in place as some sellers will refill water bottles with tap water – don’t drink this, for you will get ill. (3) Take toilet paper with you everywhere … true!

E.M. Forster said “When you go to India, you come face to face with yourself” – I couldn’t agree more!

Cyprus – Impressions.

Cyprus is a huge surprise in many ways in a small parcel …. urban developed areas close to , diverse rural areas and various mineral resources ( copper, iron ore, huge deposits of sandstone and limestone …. you can see the layers of earth … tossed up and tortured.. warped by the movement of the planetary plates millennials before … so diverse in the sea, the land … farming … surprisingly close to developed areas are the original small villages.. as with all humanity the surface of Cyprus covers human souls in transition … .

View of Paphos from the Marina / Port
Cyprus is in Eurozone and hence the currency is the Euro …. food quality is good, and not unreasonable (when you buy the wide diversity of local produce) – large supermarkets – well stocked … I am living in the town of Paphos, of about 30,000 people normally, population nearly doubles in the summer with European, UK and Russian visitors.

Small villages surround it, some are tiny …. roads in these villages are single lane, the width of these village roads aren’t much wider than the width of your car, they were designed for donkey carts.

Paphos has its own Bronze statue, not quite the “Little Mermaid” as in Copenhagen .. judge for yourself from the photo.

Map of the Paphos World Heritage site …
Cyprus has been inhabited for thousands of years and there is a responsible an refreshing attitude to history and in particular to archaeology … to the past .. where so may of the lessons of humanity reside. There is a World Heritage Site in Paphos, the map is shown here.

I have with the generosity of my friend Mark, been to many places, recently going to Latchi and Polis situated in the western, north facing area of the island …. it is quite wonderful to see the diversity of the island and by and large the friendliness of its people.

India – a happenstance, an inspiration

I have had many challenges in my time in India, culturally, emotionally, physically and health wise, they have dramatically changed me, to in my view, prepare me for what is to come.

More than anything they have changed how I look at large groups of people, the herd of humanity so to speak, it enabled me to change, to assume nothing, to project nothing, when we can do this we can push through the surface and to see them for who they are as individuals. People in India are little different to us, except in that they are a product of their culture, their community, their environment and beliefs, and this can manifest in many ways, one maybe an emotional repression, but remember they all want what we want at the end of the day … their life like ours is a reflection of the personality, for most of humanity this is the ego mind which creates our life individually and on a wider view, collectively for all of us.

This experience came as I hobbled across the road yesterday in Dehradun. A young man, without legs … sitting on a kind of board with wheels came up to me … it truly breaks your heart, but a big smile on his face changes the impact, changes everything – it hit me as it always does, that it is truly in our attitudes where we create our lives.

In the West we may have some expectations of life, he had none, there is no safety net for him here, no social programs … but he was smiling .. a lesson and inspiration for all of us.

It reinforced in me a way to live .. from humble gratitude, staying present, accept, flow and help who you can, how you can, when you can.