On the aftermath of change …

There are times in our lives when we need solitude, it becomes totally necessary, this can give us the time we need to try and understand the past, the challenge which we were presented with, and we hopefully understand the reason for the challenge in the first place .. and at some point understand, what we have learnt from the experience. This is something that is incredibly personal, and simple … but it only needs to make sense to you, it must be simple, not convoluted, not a conspiracy.

We do need people in our lives as well …. during this time if we can look outside ourselves, act to help others, conversations with others, over time this can bring a change in perspective, empathy and kindness for others and eventually love back into our lives.

Please bear in mind that God, however you perceive the divine to be, does not judge or punish us, we are totally loved and understood, what I have learnt is that because of our beliefs we punish ourselves …. As others behave towards us … often the perpetrators of these lessons, the others in our lives cannot see the import of what they have done, they do not understand nor it seems care, all they see is something else they desire – their actions do the rest.

For us to be free of their actions and any time in the past, we must forgive them for our own sake, so we are no longer controlled by our past. After we have conquered the challenge, we grow, we become stronger … more solid in our foundations.

We know that Trust is the foundation of all relationships, without trust, there is nothing …. in my case that was critical to the lesson I learnt, which also led me to understand the nature of love itself, not the conditional kind, this love which I speak is not available to most of us on earth, or should I say in the duality world. So I wait, for that love to come into my life, will it come, I am told in my meditations that it will (but I don’t know) …

One needs to be careful when speaking or listening to our souls, for the soul is influenced by our spirit, so when speaking of subjects the spirit holds dear, it may be incorrect … as you may also know our Karma is held in our soul … so asking the soul a question can possibly lead to the creation of an illusion …. I keep coming back to this … Accept, stay present and flow … this little phrase is one I have to constantly remind myself of. I don’t know this, but it feels right that Karma also springs from our past lives and carries forward. As we progress if you are not at peace, fulfilled, or haven’t realized unconditional love, then our true abundant nature may be obscured, it may only be part of the process of spiritual evolution, please do not judge yourself, as I feel we must have faith and take little steps, but just keep moving forward.

We lament constantly with the rhetoric that comes from others, from Politicians, the ignorant and the uninformed or those who have – in their mind – the illusion of knowledge …. To be detached from their rhetoric and actions is hard …. But it is their perspective and so long as it is only rhetoric there is little harm to it for you and I …. The problem becomes manifest when issues are constantly regurgitated … it changes the tone of the conversation from being just blame and criticism, often about subjects which we have no influence over, like World affairs, Government policies, the actions of others, also about the past, about perceived injustices or oppressions – also fear / uncertainty concerning the future … where constant repetition may bring depression, blame, guilt, shame, fear – frustration and may lead to anger and violence … this is when people stop thinking and act to hurt or destroy… all these are also part of us, but being apparently a victim, can be quite destructive to our consciousness, our self-worth, our sense of self, our strength … because we think we are powerless, when in fact we are the crucible of all power, for we are unlimited, we are the Universe.

This is all just a perspective, it has no more value than anyone else’s …. I would welcome your comments and thoughts concerning this. Please note I still have moments with living in the world, such as things happening that are unexpected …. I have to also be aware of over thinking anything …. Over thinking in a way is like digging a hole, deeper and deeper … to survive, at some point we have to let go of the past, an event a person and begin again …. It feels so good when we have this realisation and act, for it feels like a great weight has been lifted off our shoulders.

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Solitude & Transformation – 18 days in the forest

I am writing this is Cyprus, detached by time and distance from the original experience in Australia.

It has taken me many years to achieve this, a very limited perspective about what happened in this experience, in time this perspective may also change.

The originator was a frustrating experience which I had allowed to happen where I had given others my love and trust and these were betrayed, instead their misguided ideology that valued no one but themselves, their beliefs, assumptions, projection and fears were the end of us … this experience created a need in me for real solitude .. I had reached a point where all the old ways no longer made sense, I kept hitting a wall – people’s promises and words did not match their actions … I needed to find what was real as mindfulness and meditation although helping weren’t bringing clarity.

I was in a sea of pain, my internal compass was spinning and I had no idea what to do … I was unable to understand the thinking, the beliefs and values of those who had professed their love, then had created this challenge, all emanating from a group that said they lived by Buddhist teachings – a truism being that the basis of all relationships is trust.

I was deep in despair then finally I decided to isolate myself purposefully from all distractions, to try and understand why this challenge had come to me … what was it in me that I had to understand, to face and overcome, I wondered what was I to learn from the experience?

The nurturing environment of nature beckoned, it had always been a wonderful energising and calming experience for me, I would go. …. I took some food, tent etc and went looking for a camp site in the state forest – my past experience in nature automatically kicked in, I set up camp, explored the area, boiled water for a drink, all the time feeling the balance and harmony, the nurturing energy of natured flowed into me, then I began to meditate.

Over the next 18 days, I travelled through transitions – the first four days, were a most unsettling, and confronting experience … illusions came and went … even in a conscious state I found difficulty in understanding the actions of others … my ego screamed out in defiance of my mindfulness but I did not engage and after a while its voice diminished until I eventually found the no mind state … for days I was in a place of wonder … peak experiences came …. some have been repeated since, it was an incredible humbling learning experience where I could see the balance and interconnectivity of life in nature all around me, from the plants, the insects, the birds the animals and myself – we were one.

During my time in the forest I heard an another voice, a voice I had heard before, which I now know is my soul, it asked me did I want to go on? I asked what would happen if I didn’t, the voice said “we will then stop here, but if you go through you can never go back, you are on a new path” … I said let’s go, and here I am.

I have never regretted this decision.

In the forest, after a while I become one with the environment, the forest and all the life it contained … I couldn’t separate myself I couldn’t judge the actions of others for this reason – this extended to my recent challenge … I couldn’t judge, all I could do was to try and empathise in an effort to understand their actions and what beliefs had brought the situation to me – there was nothing in me that enabled me to understand the motivations of the others in this experience, all I could was to accept the situation, forgive those that had betrayed me, let go and move on.

I finally understood the Alan Watts quote: “If you go off into a far, far forest and get very quiet, you’ll come to understand that you’re connected with everything”

Any action, good or bad that comes with intent, brings Karma … I knew that Karma would handle the situation with those in my past far better than I could, so I let go of the past, forgave it and moved on.

As always this was my experience, it may have some similarities with your own or not. There is no right way for everyone’s journey is their own

Along with a new perspective on the present moment, Peace, Love, detachment, understanding and presence came and has stayed.